school

so today at school was hard but i made it through it and did my best. I had alot of stuff to do and it was hard at first but then later i understood. i need to get through this school year if i want to get into college and get a good job ugh heavenly father please bless me that i may get through this.

the begining of life

When we are first born we are all inocent. But as we grow to be older children, then teens, and at last adults some of us become sinful while the rest of us live our lives gods way. At times I think of chooseing wrong and some times I do but it always comes back to haunt me. There are are time that we feel lost and like we can't find our ways but the lord is always watching us. I feel as though I have lived the first of my life badly and with out a doubt i feel like a fallen angel because I have fallen from Gods way and i need to repent so i write this in hope that no one makes the choices I made and that they live their lives faithfully they and to those who have their own beliefs then stay true to them.

what a life

yesterday was very blurry to me i slept most of the day but i think i kept waking up. i kept haveing this dream when i was asleep that i was being tormented by a shadowy person then a person bathed in light saved my life banishing the shadow person. i woke up rather quickly but i think it was a message from the lord telling me he is watching over and protecting me.

toy soldiers

i was listening to enimens song toy soldiers and it got me thinking. It's about a rab war but if u really think about it reminds you of the war across seas and the gang wars that happen here in america. and he says something about being the better person and not fight with the other person i know people are fight for their country and family and friends but haveing those people die only brings pain to their familys. my father was in the army' my uncle is a lutinent cammander in the navy and my grandpa was in the vitnam war. if i were to lose any of them it would break my heart and tear me to peices from the inside out. i can only pray for those who have lost their loved ones and also pray that those who haven't died come home safely to their loved ones.

a day to remember

yester day I woke up and wrote that morning about the evil feeling. Well after that I was all over the internet and I mean I was on facebook, myspace, and myyearbook. Then after I watch the tv ,movies that I had never heard of where on like the red dawn. After a little bit of tv Hunter Tinsley and I sat out on the back patio and I watched as they ran around and played. Hunter is my pride and joy a husky lab mix and Tinsley is my mom's little girl a min pin chiuaua mix. I went inside after about an hour and play with the two kittens Cloud and Adelina. both where born on the first saturday of July and have grown alot there where six kittens all together Adelina and another little girl were the only females all the others where boys. The others were, Blue, Homer, Grumpy,and Dot(the female). Their mom is now two years old and very heathly. After i played with Cloud and Adelina I sat and petted Gabbe the momma cat. Hunter and Tinsley laying at the end of the couch.I then layed down for a nap and didn't wake up until well two hours ago weird but I did have a great day.

a evil feeling

yesterday as my mom droped the kids off at school i sat down and watch a show were a man was being haunted by something. he called what was suposedly a white witch. The witch tried to banish the demon but the demon was to strong. after that the guy lived for months being haunted and was on the verge of going insane when a friend told him that she may know somebody that could help him. he went to see this person. she was what alot of people call a healer( a person that helps people that are being tormented by the demons that haunt them). when he told her what was going on she decided to help. first she told him that she need him to truley belive in god for it to work and he agreed. she told him to repeat what she said. she said a pray and then it was his turn but when he tried to say jesus he couldn't his eyes went black and his voice sounded denomic. as i sat there watching this part i suddenly got this very scary feeling and then i felt something touch me . i jumped the hairs on the back of my neck and arms was standing up i felt very cold as well. i ran to the phone to call my mom when she answered the phone i explained what happened she could tell i was truely frightned by something and she rushed home talking to me the whole time until she got here. we sat down and bothe bowed our heads and said a pray. after the pray i felt a calm feeling and the love of our heavenly father.